Possessions-Day Ten

For the past ten days I feel as if I have cleaned out almost every thing in my room. It is a great feeling, but kind of nerve racking when I know I still have twenty more days to go. I am now trying to find things all around my house that I can give away, because I know that my sisters don't need all of the things that they still have. (Like beanie babies? I mean, come on.) But I went to youth group last night, and it was really powerful. God has been doing something in my spirit lately that I guess I haven't had time to see, so He decided to make it more grandeur so that I would take notice. I sing up front for my youth services and thought that because God has blessed me with a voice, I should use it. Well it turns out that it's not what I think that matters, but what God thinks. I was standing up front and all of a sudden I realized that my mic wasn't on, which isn't that big of a deal, but this is the third week that it hasn't been on. And I started getting frustrated, and then we started singing this verse:

Today, I'm walking to the beat of your heart
You take me all the way to the start
Stretch your hands, straighten the path
I'm found in open skies
Your heart it lives in mine
Today

And then I started feeling a little bit sick. I can't explain it, but I knew that God was trying to tell me something. All of these set-backs that have been going on with worship, I realized that He was trying to get me to listen. Sometimes I use worship as my excuse to get out of doing what God has called me to do. I think, well I'm singing at youth group so I can't bring people or talk to them about who He is, or something. And when I was standing up there, God was telling me to stop singing and to go preach and speak. I have a calling on my life to go spread the Good News, and I have been avoiding it. I want our youth group to grow and I want to see revival at my school. If I don't step up and do something about it, then it might not ever happen. Last night I realized how much I had been putting God aside to do my thing, while saying it was all in His name, which it wasn't. I have vision for my school, and my leader Lisa told me last night to just relax, because God has it all taken care of. I have three and a half years left at my school to see a change. I can't back down now. God is going to give me opportunities to speak to people about who He is, and I'm excited to share! I can already tell that God is going to do something amazing with my high school, and I can't wait to be a part.
This might not have anything to do with possessions, but it's been on my heart. God's doing something powerful at my school, I can already see it.

Lord, right now I pray that you would bring the right people to my school and that they would have a stirring inside of them, just like me. I pray that you would give me the courage to walk in a new person and to speak your name. I pray that I would come in contact with people who are living for You, so that together we can make a difference. I pray for all of the people that I want to bring to my youth group, that they would see what You are doing in their lives. Give me the wisdom and the words to speak so that they are for Your glory, not my own. And Jesus, I pray that you would show up this week, somehow, somewhere. I want to see You change my school, and without You, it is never going to happen. I love you with all that I am, and I am your faithful servant. Whatever You call me to do, I will listen. You are my all. I love You, and am grateful for all that You have done for me. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.